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Have the memories faded
or can you still recall
and if given the chance
would you erase it all
every moment locked inside
frozen within my mind
all the time you spent
under hospital lights
the hush of your voice
when you called at night
from another e.r.
You gave in again and so did i
another blade stained
you wrote your eulogy
while I was high on pain,
bleeding to cry
while you lived to die
& I hid the scars
beneath velvet & lace
anxious eyes fixed on the place
you should be sitting
my heart is pounding but is yours?
And I race home to place that call

were we even alive at all?