the only question that remains

across the room I saw you

and I've never been the same

I couldn't see your face

but I can't forget your name

it's carved into my soul

fading letters etched in gold

and if you plan on leaving

please don't go without me

I will not stop believing

in all we could still be

so keep your secrets where you keep my heart
just leave that candle burning in the dark

and if you don't wait for me I will understand

but when our time comes, will you take my hand?

(1088

we're much too young

855
we're not free enough
1165
we're not getting any closer)

GTFO.

sometimes I'd like to scratch you

right out of my brain

tie you up and gag you

and just run

away

she

you never know who she is going to be this week
you never know what's going to make her mad tonight
she thinks we're all out to get her
her eyes dart back and forth she trembles
like a frightened rabbit but now she's sorry
she is calm and coherent and just for a few minutes
you can see her. and she's lovely.
but then it's late, and the screaming still hasn't stopped, and things are breaking downstairs.
why are the cops here again?
you never know what she's going to say next.
when you ask her what's for dinner, will she tell you?
or will she suddenly threaten to drive herself off a cliff instead?
and then, she slaps you across the face
and she calls you a bitch.

this one's nameless too

tonight the past is whispering
as lightning splits a blackened sky
the ghosts of yesterday are singing
of what it means to die
but I won't cast this love away
I won't make that sacrifice
because I know that some day
I could afford to pay the price
may be we should all let go
of what could have been, cuz it's not
but what could be will never be so
if it is never even sought
if I can be the one who haunts you
then I will not let you down
what's simple is what's true
and that's all that matters now.

i haven't given this one a name...probably fitting...

Can I be

the face behind your eyelids

as you lie sleeping?

my ancient one

you are made of stone
that won't be broken

you are my immortal

could I be yours?
we are eternal.

Can I be

the voice that soothes your mind

when you are weary?

my secret prayer

you are that song in my head
that always plays
you are my lullaby
could I be yours?
we are a melody.

Can I be
the destination you long to reach

as you are walking?

my north star
you light the winding road
that leads me onward

you are my hearth

can I be yours?
we are destiny.

sometimes I feel like a box in a storage closet

place me on the shelf
run away and save yourself
let me take anybody else

I can almost reach you
and then we fall through
hiding from what's true

sometimes I wish you'd stay away
and leave me here to decay
but my heart would die that day.

eclipse

It has always been and perhaps will always be

that you are the sun and the moon is me

I turn to you in the coldness of space

and you are all warmth and light and glorious grace

golden and glowing from so far away

oh, how you light the darkest of days

and I am pale beside you, distant and small

can't see that I have much luster at all

with so many stars, we are sharing this sky

each one of them far more brilliant than I

a surface dark and scarred is all I can see

so why would you shine just for me?

you rise and you fall from the earth's sight

and likewise I move from darkness to light

(I hope that's some comfort to you,

darling, that I have a dark side too)

so tell me, bright one, do you know who you are?

how you outshine the loveliest star

and from across this galaxy can you still see

just a little beauty left inside of me?

You rule the day and I reign at night

we are fated to this dance in twilight

for I am caught in the earth's gravity

can't see how I shall ever break free

but then again if you believed in me

I'd have the strength to do anything

I'll be the queen and you'll be my king

we'll arrange the cosmos as we want them to be

with a final eclipse we could conquer destiny

one.

it rained on my notebook so it seemed best to type all this up before the words run together so much they can no longer be deciphered...

"i don't think we should
live like we are dying
we have all our lives
to keep on trying."

yeah, it's all a bunch of nothings like this one. enjoy or go away.