early 2012

Sometimes my heart sings in joy of you
In celebration of your very breath
How do you not hear it?
How can you not feel it?
If you’re alive so is hope
If you’re smiling all is well
And as I sing you plug your ears, close your eyes
And go sing to someone else
A hundred thousand words
All whispering your name
Hand flying across the paper
Trying to capture it
Define it, destroy it
But I can’t write it out of me
I can’t cross it out and I can’t drown you out
In the usual ways
like I do everything else
And instead of singing
My heart hemorrhages