no one is home

Tears in my eyes
my soul in my hands
I kneel before God
and trembling
offer my heart.
"Please," I whisper
"You fix this for me."
But there is no God
and there is no soul
I am on my knees alone
holding out empty hands
and begging only the air.

still

I'm sorry for everything
lately I've been thinking
maybe I'm better off alone
so I can do no harm
whatever I say, think or do
for me there's no happy ending
without you
I'm still right here
trying to find myself
wherever you are or go
that's still where I want to be

-june

Willing and Unable

I can't do it anymore
Not because I'm too weak to
But because I don't know how
Sometimes when things break in two
There's no glue that can fix them
And there's nothing left to do
But let pieces lie in peace

I Could Use Some Dynamite--And Lots Of Bandages

An ocean of waves
crashing to shore
behind a rock wall
so high I can't see over
so thick I can't hear through
The sea breeze is in the air
I know the water's there
but I cannot touch it
so I turn my back
to the forbidden coast,
bruised, bloody knuckles
finally at rest
in my pockets.

soul to soul
we add up
to a whole
that feeling
grows and grows
with each word
i'm never
as crazy
as when i
think of you

if my words
hurt
imagine how much
hurt
i must have felt
to have written them
and how much
love
to scrawl them
alone
not scream them
aloud
while my heart
broke
 

i don't love you
i just want to take your heart
and place it somewhere safe
and stitch little wings
onto all of your dreams
so they can fly away
i don't love you
i just want to tie you down
on a pedestal to raise
and make you believe
you are more than you see
a human diety
i don't love you
i just want to make you smile
and fill you up with light
and steal all the stars
from the greedy night sky
so every wish comes true
i love you
so all of these things
that i want to do
i want even more so
for you