soul to soul
we add up
to a whole
that feeling
grows and grows
with each word
i'm never
as crazy
as when i
think of you

if my words
hurt
imagine how much
hurt
i must have felt
to have written them
and how much
love
to scrawl them
alone
not scream them
aloud
while my heart
broke
 

i don't love you
i just want to take your heart
and place it somewhere safe
and stitch little wings
onto all of your dreams
so they can fly away
i don't love you
i just want to tie you down
on a pedestal to raise
and make you believe
you are more than you see
a human diety
i don't love you
i just want to make you smile
and fill you up with light
and steal all the stars
from the greedy night sky
so every wish comes true
i love you
so all of these things
that i want to do
i want even more so
for you

imbalance confusion turmoil
hurt becomes hate
lies and secrets breed distrust
sorrow and anger are cause and effect
i hold it all in and explode
i let it all out and implode
chaos devastation and ruin
i take the blame for the effects
but the cause is not mine alone
(therefore) nor the effect
repeating patterns circular cycles
STOP
it ends within
no effects for any cause
action not reaction
i take back autonomy

people don't care to fall
for the one who loves them
they want the one they love
to be the one who loves them
so much love wasted
in love alone

I am not perfect
not the girl of your dreams
or a ray of sunlight
or a bottomless well of love
My body has its flaws
past is riddled with faults
mind changes like the seasons
and my well
holds
everything
lower the pail
and taste it all
sweet dreams
bitter regret
bittersweet memories
beautiful dreams and broken intent
and a hundred ancient hurts
this is the nectar of my love
the flavor may not suit you
but it's mine

Conversations playing over in my mind
A place, a face, a life I left behind
I know I broke the world apart
took his blood and broke his heart

but mine broke first

so when guilt slides over my soul
I let my memory take control
and spiral back in time to then
until I'm sure I'd do it again

you broke us all